Alex,
Words are going to be hard after listening to this EP. First, I have to say I am so proud of you and grateful that you were brave enough to put out this project. To those who submitted stories, YOU ARE AMAZING AND SO INSPIRING! Even if she didn’t pick your story to write, keep speaking up. People will listen. I will listen. I am so thankful that I got to witness these songs firsthand a month ago, in Atlanta. Despite your bad day, Alex, you put on a great show and tears were streaming down my face.
I had the pleasure of getting the demo album. So none of these songs are new to me, but at the same time they are. I’ve kinda been holding back really listening to the lyrics until the actual release so I can experience the feels at the same time everyone else does. THE FEELS WERE FELT! I was already sobbing by the end of the intro because I already knew they were coming so I went ahead and let them out. By the end of Charlotte, I was out of my bed, sobbing on the floor.
I understand these are people’s stories. After hearing Alex explain them, I am heartbroken as well as completely understanding of what these six people have experienced. However these are songs and they are interpreted differently by everyone. So I am going to go through them, letting you know my thoughts and the way I took each song in the moment.
Intro: Hearing these voices reassured me that it is okay to tell pieces of your life. I lost it when they realized who they are.
Charlotte: I feel like this entire song speaks for itself. SHARE YOUR FREAKING STORY, ALISHA!!! Even if I don’t feel like I have one, I do. There should be no excuse as to why I bottle up everything when I have a good handful of people who are willing to listen to what I have to say.
Muriel: At this point, I’m on the floor sobbing and crying out. When I saw Alex perform this live, I took it as if God were singing it to me. Two years ago, I walked away from my relationship with Him. For the past month, that has been buried in my mind and I haven’t really worked on letting Him in. I did open my Bible for the first time in years to Psalm 27: "The Lord is my light & my salvation -Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life -Of whom shall I be afraid?" I was going to start working on my relationship with Him but never really put forth the effort. That was just two weeks ago. I will say that this song meant a great deal to me, the other day. I found out why someone, I cared for, never said a proper goodbye and how much I miss him. But I am okay without him. Tonight, it was about God again. He was saying come back, I need you. This was definitely a reality check.
Ben: Through sobbing hysterically, this song sent a peace over me. God is the calm in the chaos. He is and always will be there when I need him. I feel like my main issue is that I don’t forgive. I mainly never forgive myself. I am learning to though.
Alena: Phew, what can I say about this one? It’s badass, that’s for sure. People want to knock mental health down and tell you to “man up”. What they don’t realize is that you are literally killing yourself softly when you hold everything inside. You don’t realize that you are, but it’s happening. This song just makes me want to let EVERYTHING out. I was telling myself to let it go. Let it out and cry. I did. I was angry one moment. I was happy the next. I was sad again. I felt everything in this one song. I have very few friends I can trust with everything that goes on in my screwed up mind. So I have to tell them how I feel.
Royston: Fortunately I have not experienced anyone too close to me pass away. So I couldn’t really feel anything for this song. So I just listened to the words and thought about Royston for a moment. Then I realized, I work in a company where I talk to people who are dealing with death in the present moment. I’m not gonna lie, I don’t like my job too much. But i realized that my attitude definitely affects how these families begin the stages of the grieving process. I play a big role in their lives for those few minutes.
Everything: This song is just a reminder to anyone that you are perfect in your imperfections. Despite the crap you deal with on a daily basis, you are who you are for a reason. The real friends who are there for you, know the real you. I’m always scared of change. I remain in denial so much that it scares me out of doing anything. My scars from my heart surgeries are reminders that I am strong. I have overcome something even if I’m not done fighting it. I don’t look at myself in the mirror confidently. The only confidence I have is in my personality. But I know once I accept everything about myself, I will know that God made me in His perfect image. In that, I will know that everything will be okay.
So those are my thoughts. I really appreciate you taking the time to read this.
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