Focus

When You say, “It is done,” then it is done. So why do I continue to get distracted? I knew this would never be easy, But I’ve also given up on the work to truly find myself.

I’m still trying to please others. I’m still focusing on myself when I should be focused on You. I’ve started to go back to not caring again. But the reality is that I do care. I care a great deal. But for some reason I’ve lost the hope to the faith I thought I had.

Faith is what we hope for but can’t see. I believe in faith, but I need You to help my unbelief in hope. I’m getting down on myself because I’ve lost the ability to remain positive for my future.

You know my future. I need to stay focused on You so I can reach that future You have in store. If your plan was for me to give up now, I would’ve ended my life a while ago. But I am still here because You are not finished with me yet and I want to find out why.

I’m sharing this with you [reading this] because I need true friends who will hold me accountable to what I wrote in this. I don’t want to go back to the way things were, six months ago. I was in a dark place. It’s time to work on His plans for my life. We were not meant to live our lives alone. We are in this together. I know you’re struggling too. Let’s help each other by being honest in our walk with God, in our friendships, and in ourselves. Would you be willing to walk through this faithful journey with me?